Paul Reubens (AKA Pee-Wee Herman) Has Come Out As Gay In A Posthumous Documentary About His Life

The late Paul Reubens made sure he got the final word when it came to his much-debated but never openly acknowledged sexuality.

The beloved actor came out as a gay man in the posthumous documentary, which premiered at the Sundance Film Festival on Thursday.

While sitting down with director Matt Wolf for the film, Reubens discussed why he decided to hide his sexuality after becoming famous with his whimsically childlike character, Pee-wee Herman.

“I hid behind an alter ego,” he said in the movie, which was detailed in a story by the New York Post. “I spent my entire adult life hiding. I was a huge weed head. I was secretive about my sexuality even to my friends [out of] self-hatred or self-preservation. I was conflicted about sexuality. But fame was way more complicated.”

Reuben's Pee-wee persona first took off after debuting the character with the Groundlings comedy troupe in 1981. After being unexpectedly thrust into the spotlight, the star chose to put his professional ambitions ahead of his personal life.

“I was out of the closet, and then I went back in the closet,” Reubens said, who recalled being in a relationship with a man who helped inspire Pee-wee before concealing his sexuality and becoming a pop culture icon.

“I wasn’t pursuing the Paul Reubens career,” he continued. “I was pursuing the Pee-wee Herman career.”

Reubens’ success as Pee-wee was undeniable. Throughout the 1980s, the character became a fixture on late-night television, landing the star his Emmy-winning children’s show, Pee-wee’s Playhouse, and two hit films. (A third, far less celebrated Pee-wee film came out in 2016, years after Reubens’ career collapsed following his 1991 arrest for indecent exposure.)

Though he refused to be public about his sexuality during his career, the actor told Wolf he had “many, many secret relationships” amid the height of his fame.

Despite refusing to come out as gay during his lifetime, Reubens decided to make his sexuality public in the posthumous documentary, which is crafted from 40 hours of interviews done prior to his death at the age of 70 in 2023 due to acute hypoxic respiratory failure.

The star, who was also fighting two forms of cancer and kept his diagnosis private during the last years of his life, told Wolf how working on Pee-wee as Himself gave him a chance to shape his own legacy after years of scandal, speculation, and gossip.

“More than anything, the reason I wanted to make a documentary was for people to see who I really am, and how painful and dreadful it was to be labeled something I wasn’t,” he told the filmmaker. “To be labeled a pariah; to have people be scared of you, or untrusting.”

Remarking on his own mortality in the movie, Reubens said, “Death is just so final. To be able to get your message in at the last minute, at some point, is incredible.”

Pee-wee as Himself, a two-part documentary, will be released on HBO sometime later this year.

This article originally appeared on HuffPost.