Khloé Kardashian Says She's 'Not Ashamed' of the Traumatic Moments in Her Love Life: 'It's One of My Superpowers'

Khloé Kardashian is getting real about her priorities.

On the second episode of her podcast, Khloé in Wonderland, which premiered Wednesday, Jan. 22 on X, the mom of two was joined by Jay Shetty for a candid conversation about love — and Kardashian, 40, revealed she isn't "ashamed" of her romantic past. She began by referencing her former relationship with ex Tristan Thompson, saying that they "aren't together anymore, but we co-parent really, really well."

"I've chosen to not — and because I genuinely don't want to. Right now, I'm not dating because my relationship with my kids just is it's everything to me," she shared. "And not that that means people who are dating when they have kids anything but where I am in my life right now, I just really want to nurture this love, and I just want to be as present as I can. I don't want any distractions right now in my life."

"If I meet someone in two months, two years and I fall in love, great, but I'm not actively on the dating scene, searching for someone, and I'm so happy. I feel so fulfilled," she continued. "I also love that I've taken about three years off of dating, and I feel like I've really got to know myself on a deeper level. It's that thing about avoidance or distracting. And when you're stuck with yourself, you're like, 'Okay, I gotta come face to face with this version of me.' Or, 'What do I want to perfect?' Or, 'How can I be a better person in this area?'"

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Kardashian has been doing all of this "in hopes that when I do meet my next partner, it will be my forever partner, but also the right one that I would want to be around my children and around my family."

"Nurturing those relationships with my mom, my siblings, my kids, my nieces and nephews, that means more to me than anything else in my life. Right now and then, the person I invite in would just be that bonus," she explained.

"I had to deal with a lot of trauma to get to this point. We were talking about the beginning: don't discredit the things that brought you to this journey, because even though I wouldn't wish on anyone what I went through romantically, I'm also not ashamed of anything I went through romantically," she said. "I also think it's one of my superpowers that I went through those things, and I still have such a softness or love and for life."

Looking back on her traumatic experiences in love, Kardashian now sees it as just "my journey" that she was "supposed to go on."

"It made me better, I don't know, and it brought me to this point that's more in a healthy isolation where I can reflect and work on myself," she continued. "I think if this would have happened 10 years ago, I would have been like, 'Let me go to the club,' and I would be, you know, 30, because I just turned 40, I'm not going to be in the club. But, you know, this happened when I was younger I would have been like, 'Let me just go hook up with a bunch of guys,' and that's just distracting and bearing that that trauma is going to resurface later."

Shetty, 37, then asked Kardashian how she's learned to not take everything that happened in her love life personally, to which she said: "For me, it was so much of my faith."

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"I am a Christian. I used to take theology in school, and I love theology. I love learning about other religions. And the root of it is, really there's a higher being, and we all answer to that higher being at one point in life. And for me, it was having a lot of conversations with God when I pray. They're more conversational, and I would just talk, and I realized that wasn't my journey. Like, it was a part of my journey, but that wasn't a reflection of me," she explained.

"It was that part I was used for that person to learn life lessons. And I also feel that because I'm strong enough, and my response like, 'yes' in the moment, if someone did something not great to me, I probably had not the best reaction, but that would be immediately. But afterwards, I've always handled things with respect and kindness," she continued. "And no matter what someone did to me, I was never manipulative or trying to do the same thing back. I think what people don't get. It's not eye for an eye. When you do eye for an eye, that other person isn't learning anything. They're just like, 'Well see, that's why I cheated on you,' or 'That's why I did that.' They always say that."

She added, "But if you, I don't want to say, like, take something on the chin, but for lack of a better expression, sure, if you deal with it, and if you're strong enough to say, 'Okay, this isn't my journey. That was for them to experience, but it was [for] me to learn and to see these signs that I don't want in my next partner like that, I think was part of my journey, but I know what was done to me was not about me. I know that was about them, and they have past trauma that they've never healed from.' And every time when you ask someone like, 'Why'd you do this? And they'll bring up, 'Oh, my parents' or 'I came from a broken house.' It's always something like that. It's never about the immediate relationship. It's always from years past."

Kardashian, admittedly, noted that when infidelity occurred in her marriage, referencing Lamar Odom, "I was younger, and I think that was a lot harder for me."

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"But what's interesting was with each relationship where something bad has happened, I didn't take it and was like, 'Whoa is me. I'm this victim.' I took it more like, 'Okay, that's another layer of armor that I'm putting on myself that I can get through anything else that happens in my life, but it's also not going to harden me for my next relationship,'" she shared. "I'm really big on not taking all of that baggage with me, but I still like to carry it a little just so I'm reminded I think of like, red flags that I'm supposed to see now, but it's not going to make me project that onto my next partner."

"But also for my kids, like, I never want to be that person that my kids are like, 'Oh, I'm going to get married.' And I'm like, well, good luck. I really hate when people take their relationships and they project it," she concluded. "Like, I do believe in happily ever after. I am one of those hopeless romantics, and I love the fairy tale and the fantasy, regardless of what's ever happened to me, I'm always going to be that girl."

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Kardashian's comments about her dating life come two weeks after she and Scott Disick bonded on the premiere episode of her podcast about their hesitance toward dating — at least while their kids are young.

Calling her two kids True, 6, and Tatum, 2 — who she shares with Thompson — her "top priority," Kardashian said, "I don’t care about dating."

"I don’t know what will happen in a couple years or next year, I don’t know. But I’m not dating, I don’t care to," she said. "My focus is on just my kids. But I think if I wasn’t in my situation, I’d be like, ‘You’re so full of s---.' But I totally get it, and to me, I think it’s the smartest thing."

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The longtime friends also addressed the constant speculation that they've been romantically involved before — despite Disick's lengthy history with Kardashian's sister Kourtney Kardashian Barker, with whom he shares three kids.

The Good American founder revealed that the "number one question" she got from fans for a potential interview with Disick was about if they've "ever hooked up," as "for years, people have always ran with this narrative about either you hooking up with Kendall [Jenner]... or me."

"With us, because we get along well, people are like, 'They're soulmates!' Like, bro, I have children with her sister. We're not soulmates," Disick said of the rumors, calling them "psychotic."

"The crazy thing is, if we actually were together, we would be annihilated for it," Kardashian also pointed out. "No one’s ever happy."

New episodes of Khloé in Wonderland premiere Wednesdays on X at 9 a.m. ET and stream the next day on all other platforms.

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