Pamela Anderson Distances Herself from New “Baywatch” Documentary: 'I Really Don't Want to Go Backwards'

"This last couple of years, it was an effort to just stay alone and figure out what I love, what I like, what I want to do," Anderson said

Pamela Anderson is opening up about her past reputation, and how she wants to be seen moving forward.

In an interview with Glamour, the model and actress, 57, spoke about where she stands in her life after Playboy, Baywatch, a docuseries and more. Explaining that she wants to distance herself from the old version of herself — the one that brought her to fame — Anderson told the outlet she has no intention of returning for any rumored projects relating to her past.

“Even today, someone showed me something that Hulu’s doing, some kind of Baywatch [documentary], which I have nothing to do with,” she said, despite reports that it will feature original members of the show. “And so they just dug up some interview, but I had nothing to do with this documentary. They begged everybody around me. They tried to get my kids to talk me into it. They said they’d give them producer credits.”

“I mean, they were trying everything,” she continued. “And I said, ‘No, I really don’t want to go backwards.’”

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The Last Showgirl star also said that Pam & Tommy, the biographical drama on Hulu about her public romance with now-ex-husband Tommy Lee, was never passed by her. However, Lily James (who played Anderson) and the show’s creator Robert Siegel have said Anderson never responded to their attempts to reach her.

“I’ve never had any input. I didn’t know anything about it,” Anderson maintained.

Thinking back to when her sex tape with Lee was leaked from their honeymoon in 1995, the actress said “it was a complete crime” committed against her. The miniseries then brought back those negative memories.

“It hit me a lot harder than I even imagined,” she shared. “Because it made me so nauseous to even think about it again when it came out, this Hulu thing. It really felt like another kick in the stomach that people might find that entertaining. And that was…I think I lost my husband, my sanity, my career.”

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“In the moment I didn’t realize it,” she added. “It’s like post-traumatic, and so then you just start acting out. And I knew that I had lots of things that happened [to me] that I could have handled differently. In this world, it’s really important how you manage your career. And I was just Wild West-ing it.”

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At the time, Anderson said she began taking jobs she normally wouldn’t, like reality TV gigs such as Big Brother, because she needed to support her family. Now, she said she hopes to live a life she is creating for herself.

“Well, it’s shedding those layers, those protective layers,” she said. “I realized as a very young child, I was playing roles my whole life. I had such a strong imagination. And it’s just what I did. I didn’t realize that was a career. And then as I moved here [to the US from Canada] and then Playboy, or being married to Tommy, or whatever it was. I just always wanted to be the best I could be at that. What is a Playmate? What is a rock star’s wife? What is a Baywatch [star]?”

“This last couple of years, it was an effort to just stay alone and figure out what I love, what I like, what I want to do,” she concluded.

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