Meghan Trainor Shares She 'Hit a Breaking Point' and Had a Panic Attack One Month After Having Second Son Barry

Meghan Trainor is opening up about a tough moment she had just after giving birth to her second baby.

In a personal essay for Today, the singer, 31, shared that she had a panic attack shortly after having her son Barry, now 17 months, as she dealt with the transition from one kid to two. "A month after having my second baby, I hit a breaking point," Trainor writes.

"I'll never forget it, it's like it was yesterday – I'm sweating, just thinking about it. I was holding Barry, my newborn, and he was crying and crying," she says. "My husband was with our toddler, Riley, putting him to bed, so I was alone with Barry and he would not stop crying and then I was crying."

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"I was having a panic attack and I was just over-exhausted, but I felt like I was dying. I felt if I stood up, I would pass out. I didn't feel safe holding the baby and at the same time I felt like my body was giving up on me."

Trainor goes on to say that she realized she needed help, and told her husband Daryl Sabara that she needed to get in contact with a doctor. She says she wants to be open about her experience so other moms know they're not alone.

"Having a kid is the hardest thing. When I talk to other moms about it, I'm like, 'Isn't this traumatic and crazy?' And we're expected to walk around like we're fine," she writes.

"That's why I want to share my own experience — to show other moms that they're not alone, and also to encourage them to ask for help and seek support. That means being honest about my own support system."

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