Lisa Curry has opened up about the pain of dealing with her grief, following the death of her daughter Jaimi at the age of 33 last year.
The former Olympian revealed in a heartbreaking column for The Sunday Telegraph, that she's been left so broken after her beloved daughter's death that “some days it’s just plain hard to get out of bed”.
Lisa's daughter, Jaimi, died in September last year after a battle with an unnamed long-term illness, with Lisa later revealing Jaimi had been diagnosed with a ‘chemical imbalance’ as a teenager.
“It’s overwhelming. It’s never-ending. I’m tired of being tired. I’m tired of being sad and exhausted. I’m sad that the fun in my soul has disappeared," Lisa wrote in her column.
She also revealed that she has lost all motivation to exercise and the pain from her grief has made her feel like she's been "hit by a truck".
Since Jaimi's passing, Lisa has regularly taken to her Instagram account to post photos of the two of them together and in February she uploaded a heartbreaking Valentine’s Day message.
In the post, Lisa urged people online to ‘tell people you love that you love them’ and ‘hold them tight’ in a poignant message.
In the caption on a photo of Jaimi surrounded by flowers, Lisa wrote: “Never a moment goes by where Jaimi is not thought about.
“Our beautiful girl who loved flowers for any occasion, in fact... there really didn’t need to be an occasion because flowers just brightened up her day.. any day. Here she is , completely in her happy place. 5 months have passed but she’s never forgotten.... ever.”
Lisa continued, saying: “Today , on Valentine’s Day, tell people you love that you love them , hold them tight, give them a hand written hand made card ... and if no one buys you flowers, go and buy some for yourself. Love yourself, be kind to yourself.”
In January, Lisa revealed the tragic words doctors told her just before her daughter passed away at the age of 33.
“4 months ago, the doctor gave us the news we had dreaded for years, that Jaimi would not survive the night,” Lisa wrote in a heartwrenching Instagram post
“It was like they just ripped our hearts out. Total disbelief ... and even though we had prepared ourselves for the worst for weeks, months and even years and thought we were prepared... nothing... absolutely nothing prepares you for that moment or those words.
“Our beautiful girl couldn’t beat the enemy... but she fought and fought.. every single day. We miss her so much.
“If you are finding life difficult, please seek out help. Don’t wait and don’t try and do it alone... remember you are loved and there is hope.”
Lisa has been posting about her grief on her Instagram account, opening up in a post saying she missed her ‘baby girl’.
“It’s so quiet without her,” Lisa said.
“Each day seems a bit of a burr but I get through it ... feeling empty.. it’s hard to even think.. my mind consumed as to what else I could have done to help…”
At the beginning of October, Lisa also revealed the ‘red flags’ she saw in Jaimi before her tragic death.
“I know people want to know why and how, but it’s not important at this time, or maybe ever, I don’t know,” she said in a post published in the Happy Hormones Facebook group.
Lisa, who starred on I’m a Celebrity...Get Me Out of Here! in 2017, said the diagnosis came 18 years ago, which is when they started to see some “tiny red flags”.
“Sometimes, an individual, even adults like us, can disregard little red flags, thinking it doesn’t matter or won’t matter,” Lisa’s post continued, urging people not to ignore the signs that she said could “add up to slowly erode your whole being”.
“To the point where you may only be existing and not really living,” she said.
The 58-year-old called some of the warning signs “life’s small neglects” - such as being inactive, being around toxic people, poor food choices, and how you interact with others.
“Don’t wait until it’s too late to make changes … do it now while you can … starting right now,” she said.
“Recognise the little red flags. Don’t live your life in turmoil, regret or guilt.”
In her emotional post, the mother said the whole situation still “doesn’t seem real”.
“We held Jaimi when she took her first breath and we held her as she took her last. I still can’t believe it, it doesn’t seem real,” she wrote.
“It’s given me the heaviest heart. Some days I can’t even get out of bed or function.”
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