Khloé Kardashian Admits She Felt 'Detached' for the Entirety of Her Surrogate's Pregnancy: 'In Denial'

"I couldn't really face it," Kardashian says of welcoming son Tatum via surrogate in July 2023

<p>Khloe Kardasdhian/Instagram</p> Khloé Kardashian and son Tatum

Khloe Kardasdhian/Instagram

Khloé Kardashian and son Tatum

Khloé Kardashian is opening up about her journey to welcoming her son Tatum.

The Good American founder and mom of two, 39, appeared on the SHE MD podcast on Tuesday, May 7, speaking with hosts Dr. Thaïs Aliabadi and Mary Alice Haney about her experience welcoming her baby boy. Kardashian, who is a patient of Dr. Aliabadi, shares that she had difficulty viewing the pregnancy as a real thing since she was not the one physically carrying her son.

Speaking about the initial embryo transfer, Kardashian says she never told anybody she ended up doing the transfer after news came to light that her ex Tristan Thompson, whom she was with at the time, had fathered another baby.

"So it was a couple days before Thanksgiving and I ended up doing the transfer. And then the first week of December, I found out that my ex was actually having a baby with somebody else," Kardashian remembers.

Never miss a story — sign up for PEOPLE's free daily newsletter to stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories. 

Related: Khloé Kardashian Says Her Doctor Offered to Take Son Tatum Home When She Had Difficulty Bonding (Exclusive)

"And I never told my family I did the transfer. I wasn't going to tell anyone until it took, because I wanted to surprise everyone. So no one knew."

As the pregnancy progressed, Kardashian says that she couldn't make the situation real for herself, especially as she wasn't the one carrying her son.

"And then the entire pregnancy of my surrogate, I admittedly buried my head in the sand and I said to Dr. A, 'I can't do this.' And the whole surrogacy pregnancy, I was really detached," the mom of two shares.

"I couldn't really face it. I very much think I was in denial that this is happening. So I didn't get to really attach during the pregnancy part," Kardashian says, before adding that she had "one of the world's best surrogates."

Kardashian welcomed her son Tatum via surrogacy in July 2023 but admitted during a season 3 episode of The Kardashians that she was still having difficulty bonding with her son in a conversation with her mom, Kris Jenner.

"Compare it to True and him, it’s a different experience," Kardashian admitted, speaking about her daughter True, now 6. "The connection ... took days with True. With him, it's taking months and we still don’t have a complete bond."

She admitted to feeling guilty about her struggles and said she questions “why isn’t it the same?"

For more People news, make sure to sign up for our newsletter!

Read the original article on People.