Taylor Frankie Paul Calls 2024 the 'Worst Year of My Life' After Spending Holidays Without Dakota Mortensen

Taylor Frankie Paul is moving forward.

The 30-year-old mom of three candidly spoke about "the worst year of my life" in a "GRWM" TikTok posted on Dec. 31.

"I wanna say that this was even worse than my 2022, which says a lot," she explained, referencing the viral "soft swinging" scandal that blew up MomTok in 2022. "I'm having trouble deciphering which one was [worse]... because I [also] had a lot of amazing opportunities come my way."

While Paul didn't go into great detail about why 2024 was so challenging for her, she teased that more would be revealed on the upcoming season of The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives, set to premiere in Spring 2025. However, she did note that she struggled with postpartum and "cried before, after [and] in between" some of the opportunities she had over the year.

"It was a year of a lot of unpacking," she continued. "A lot of these things had to happen in order for there to be actual change." She noted that she is not someone to "put the blame on other people for my life" and acknowledged that she's "self-aware of what was my part and what I could've done differently [and] what is the lesson I can take from this experience."

Paul also shared that 2024 was a year of "a lot of change" and called it the year she "let the pain [of the last few years] in."

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"Earlier this year, I [was] so disassociated, and you can see that in the show," she continued. "I'm not there, I can't even watch the show since it's so hard to watch. And then I wanted to start feeling again so you have to feel a lot of pain [and] letting things in."

She also opened up about "crying on bathroom floors" and attending "intense therapy sessions" to work through her pain.

"It doesn't matter what external things you have in life, it will never make you happy if you're not happy inside," she added. "It didn't matter how much money I made or experience I got. Your happiness will from from within, not anything else."

"If you don't acknowledge the pain, let it process and let it go through you, it stacks up and stores inside," she said when talking about working through her pain in therapy.

But despite every challenge she faced over the last year, Paul said that she thinks the year ahead is "going to be so good."

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Paul's 2024 reflections came after she opened up about the "pain" of going from "chaos to pure silence" on Christmas after she spent the holidays without her boyfriend Dakota Mortensen, sparking rumors the couple have split.

Paul reflected on her twenties in another TikTok shared on Jan. 1, where she wrote that she "didn't think my 20's would be so trying."

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"[My twenties were] full of gain, joy, learning lessons, loss, pain, confusion, love, betrayal, shame, guilt, heartbreak, happiness and sadness all mixed in," she added. The video — set to Harry Styles' song "Fine Line" — then showed photos of Paul over the last decade, including moments with MomTok, her ex-husband Tate Paul and Mortensen.

"That decade was meant for experiencing, learning, and preparing for what’s to come," she concluded in her caption.

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