Yahoo Lifestyle Portia de Rossi opens up about her eating disorder 'shame'
Portia de Rossi has opened up about her battle with anorexia and bulemia in a new docuseries called It Got Better. Photo: Getty Images
Portia de Rossi has opened up about her battle with eating disorders in an upcoming episode of new docuseries It Got Better.
The 42-year-old actress, who started modelling when she was just 12-years-old, admits she felt "shame" when she suffered from bulimia and anorexia but says she felt a "tremendous responsibility" to stay thin.
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"I felt tremendous responsibility when I was 12 years old and I was put on a catwalk. My modeling agents had told me to go on a diet. So I didn't eat for 10 days before then," Portia recalled.
"I get up on this catwalk, and I'm a little kid, and I'm posing and trying to be sexy and strutting around and all the other models are making fun of my bushy eyebrows.
"I got in the car after that event, and just opened up a bag of my favourite candy and put my whole head in it. And I think, 'S**t, what have I done? I just undid two weeks worth of dieting.' I mean, I'm 12 years old.
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"So then I vomit. Erase the feelings with food, erase the food by vomiting...but you're still left with the shame."
The Arrested Development star, now married to talk show host Ellen DeGeneres, admitted that she still gets emotional recalling that 'horrible' memory.
"It makes me emotional just thinking about that day. Ugh. It's just horrible."
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