“I just need to know that there’s other people who feel this way and I’m not going crazy,” the 26-year-old said in an emotional TikTok video
Lottie Moss says she has struggled with depression, anxiety and addiction for years
The model and half sister of Kate Moss is questioning her identity after using alcohol and drugs to deal with feelings of sadness and discomfort
She revealed she’s four days sober and vowed to continue sharing her journey to hold herself accountable
Lottie Moss is getting candid about her struggles with mental health and substance abuse.
On Monday, the model and Kate Moss' half-sister, 26, posted a tearful video on TikTok detailing her “horrible” experiences.
“I have struggled so much since I was young with depression and anxiety and problems with addiction,” she told her followers. “Becoming a model and being in that industry made it really difficult for me not to feel that way and succumb to drugs and alcohol whenever I felt sad. I’ve gotten to a point where I don’t even like or know who I am.”
“Navigating your 20s f—ing sucks because you don’t even know what you’re meant to be doing, who you’re meant to be friends with…it’s all just such a head-f–k, it really is,” she said in tears. “At times you become someone that you don’t like or know or recognize, and I think I’ve gotten to that place today where I’m just like, ‘I don’t know who I am.'”
Moss explained that went through a “big change” by joining OnlyFans and getting a face tattoo to “rebel” against the modeling industry, which she said made her sad at the time.
“I just rebelled so hard away from being that person because I was just so miserable being that person. But then, I don’t even like me now. So it’s like, who the f— am I?” she continued. “I don’t know why I’m coming on TikTok saying all this but I just need to know that there’s other people who feel this way and I’m not going crazy.”
The British model admitted that although she recognizes her privilege coming from a successful family, her battles are still very real.
“You can be grateful and still struggle,” she said. “I’m very grateful for everything that happened in my life but mental illness f—ing sucks.”
Moss added that she’s also “isolated” herself from so many people who cared and now she feels very alone. However, after restarting her sobriety journey she’s hoping to find comfort in her followers.
“I just don’t feel happy in myself. I’m four days sober also, so that’s good,” she shared, adding that being open about her struggles is going to be important for her recovery and help make sure she doesn’t go “off the rails.”
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Moss has gone public before about her challenges and shared her rehab stint in February 2022.
She later spoke to Glamour UK about the “self-discovery” she went through while recovering.
"Since rehab, I've been on a journey of self-discovery. I've spent a lot of time in Bali, surrounded by nature, reading alone or spending time with like-minded people – and learning to love myself again while finally being free from my former life," she said in December 2022.
"That's why I decided to get my face tattoo; the word 'lover' under my eye," Moss added. "Yes, it was impulsive, but after years of being so controlled, it was my way of expressing that I am free. I'm no longer controlled."
If you or someone you know is struggling with substance abuse, please contact the SAMHSA helpline at 1-800-662-HELP.
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