Kailyn Lowry in Tears About ‘Mutilating’ Her Body with Plastic Surgery ‘to Be Skinny’: It’s ‘Mental Illness’

Kailyn Lowry is getting emotional reflecting on her struggle with body image over the years.

On Jan. 6, the former Teen Mom star, 32, posted a candid video on Instagram while doing her makeup for the first time since having breast reduction surgery last month. She opened up about going through a difficult recovery and dealing with body dysmorphia.

“I had a very, very emotional morning, mainly just when I was taking a shower. I just pray that my kids never struggle with their body images enough to mutilate their bodies to be skinny,” she said, starting to tear up.

“I think a little nip and tuck in terms of a nose job or a boob job is okay,” she continued. “But to go through this to be skinny is mental illness, truly. And I say that with the most respect to anyone going through it.”

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Lowry said she’s “struggling this time around” after going under the knife, admitting that it might be because she has a daughter now. However, she said she doesn’t want her sons “to experience this level of body dysmorphia” either.

The MTV alum is mom to twins Verse and Valley, 11 months, and son Rio, 2, with fiancé Elijah Scott. She is also mom to Creed, 4, and Lux, 7, with ex Chris Lopez, 11-year-old son Lincoln with ex Javi Marroquin and Isaac, 14, whom she shares with her ex Jo Rivera.

“I was basically willing to go to any length and do this over Christmas break to be skinny, even if it meant that Elijah couldn’t be there for me. Even if it meant that I was in another state for Christmas,” Lowry said. “I was willing to go to any freaking length for it.”

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“I was going for a breast reduction and then I was like, ‘Oh, I should just add some lipo 360, add some tummy tuck in,’” she recalled. “I realized I shouldn’t have put Elijah through all of this ’cause he couldn’t be there for me the whole time.”

Lowry said that the experience is “rough” but she’s going to stop crying, “suck it up” and keep a positive mindset moving forward. The Barely Famous podcast host then gave a warning to her social media followers.

“Think once, think twice before you get plastic surgery,” she said, “and I hope everyone has a happy new year.”

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