Hi Nickito,

Nana wants you to know that even when I am not seeing you, I am still thinking of you everyday. I have this room full of all your things...the one I bough and the one you left .
Every year I got your Christmas and your birthday presents so one day even when you are an adult and I am gone, you will come and collect them, just to see that I never forget about you. You are very young now and probably you think that I just disappeared of your life but it was not my choice and while I do respect your mummy decision is so hard and painful.
One day when she grows up and became a grandma herself would she understand the love that I am feeling for you and the pain she caused me. We all make mistakes Nicky and everybody tells me that I will see you again when you be able to make your own decision but what about all these years of your childhood, how much I would love to see you growing. You were with me for the first six years of your life and I used to do a lot of things for you, I am missing that you know? I cannot go to the shops anymore without coming back home in tears, when a child scream nana nana many times I turned and it is not you and there is another lucky nana who receives kisses and hugs. I love you with all my hearts I am keeping a lot of things for you to read one day. I am so sad my beautiful grandchild, my life my baby.

Love you forever and ever

Nana