Can you ease my regret?

Q: My twin brother David died on September 1, 2005 in Thailand while he was on holiday. He was only 40, but we were told it was a possible heart attack - yet as an autopsy was never performed, we'll never really know. He was found dead in his hotel room, and I was the first one in the family to receive the call from the hotel telling us of his passing away. It was very sudden, and even though two and a half years have gone by, I feel there was no closure because he was cremated overseas with no funeral or memorial service.

I regret not flying to Thailand and seeing my brother one last time before the cremation, and am hoping you can ease my mind on a few things.

Joanne Brown, Byford, WA.

Kelvin's reading:

This bloke is funny. He has a very dry sense of humour. He's a good family man and I'm picking up on a wife and kids - it feels like two kids. When I ask him what happened to him, he closes down. He just got sick and that's that. But as soon as I touched this photo I felt sick to the bone.

He's looking for his tie. It's almost as if he only ever had one. He shows me a keyboard and a computer. I think he spent a lot of time in front of the computer. He says he had the same job for ages and really enjoyed it.

Now I see books and he's saying ‘teacher'. He keeps singing: 'Happy birthday to me,' so he may have passed close to his birthday. He says: 'Knock, knock. Who's there? Doctor Doctor.'

He's trying to be funny with me. I see him standing alongside a barbecue with tongs in one hand and a cold beer in the other. Now there's an older male with him. His own family is close-knit. He says: 'I'm OK, I'm OK.' He's saying: 'I'm sorry,' but I'm not sure what for. His state of mind is unusual. It's as if he's slightly unbalanced.

I feel ill during this reading. He keeps showing me his bride and says: 'Happy days for us all.' He says he couldn't communicate before crossing over, saying: 'I love you back,' and 'Thanks for being my soulmate.' This man has secrets he's not willing to share with me. He left a mess behind with bills, and he's sorry.
He says Queensland and the name 'Bill' or ‘Billy'.

Now he's showing me Dr Seuss and The Cat in the Hat. He says: 'My favourite,' and talks about the year 2002. He's saying 'Greg' or 'Craig' and 'Malcolm'. He shows me the neighbours and talks about an airline pilot. I'm also hearing 'Jamie' and 'Sarah'.

He misses his family and is disappointed and sad not to be here, but has settled into the other side well. He has a large family and many people to help him in spirit.

'I love my family and I never meant to hurt them,' he explains.

Joanne's response:

The photo is of my twin David. Kelvin felt ill during the reading because my brother was quite sick before and at the time of his death.

He did have a dry sense of humour. Kelvin mentioned a wife and two kids. David was married with a daughter and they also had a miscarriage. When Kelvin asked how he died, David didn't want to talk about it. That sounds exactly like him.

With reference to the tie, my brother always had to wear
a tie to work but hated them.

A computer and keyboard were shown to Kelvin. My brother was a computer whiz. Kelvin was also shown books and a teacher. David loved to read and his wife is a teacher.

I don't know why he's singing about birthdays as ours in November and David died on September 1. Yes, he was in the same job for ages and loved it.

David said he had a lot of secrets but didn't want to share them. I can understand; he did have lots of them. He also mentioned bills to be paid and cleared up. This was so true.

With The Cat in the Hat and Dr Seuss, David liked his books and actually asked me a couple of months before he passed why
I didn't have any for my son.

There are a few things and names I don't know, but David lived away from me in Melbourne.

How the readings work:

New Idea sends Kelvin the photograph you send to us, in a plain white envelope. He does not receive the letter you send in, which makes his readings even more insightful and amazing.

Send a quality photo of your loved one, plus you with your loved one, and your contact details to Kelvin Cruickshank, New Idea, Private Bag 9960, North Sydney, NSW 2059 or email newidea@pacificmags.com.au